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!JUSTROCK
I really don't know why you're here.

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Rockstar .




unspoken .


jukebox .

JUKEBOX!


RANDOMNESS IS ZE PASSION. ♥
on the journey to my ramblings, why are you here?

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Welcome to my blog randomnessandweirdnessisanna.blogspot.com where I try to annoy you as much as possible by not updating even after countless tags.
Oh. Repetition makes me happy.
And yes, there IS a pause button to stop the music from continuously playing in your ear, interrupting the sound of my very annoying voice playing in your heads.
MUHAHAHA.


Saturday, February 28, 2009
6:48 PM

I should.

{Anna} says:
My grandma just died.

youngeun_kim says:
...
errrrr...
what do u mean by that??

{Anna} says:
Passed away.
Moved on.
Her life has ended.
She is gone.
I will no longer see her.

youngeun_kim says:
seriously????

{Anna} says:
She will stay the same age forever.

youngeun_kim says:
ur grandma juz passed away??
or r u jk

I'm not joking. But I'm not crying eithier.

Because I got to hug her.

For the last time.

I got to hug her.


12:36 AM

Hair.

Kimberly Teo.

I can't really agree on that one.

Some look good.

Some don't.


12:33 AM

Mm.

My posts are getting to be too long.

I don't like that.

My brother is too young.

He resembles a puppy.

I'm happy to have a stalkee.

Bye.


Friday, February 27, 2009
11:29 PM

Post for the weirdo.

This post is dedicated to Young Eun who kicked me in the knee today.

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~11.11~------->33999 says:
=/
u onli replied after so looong


{Anna} says:
: P
I was looking at something.


~11.11~------->33999 says:
=[
is dat sth more interesting than me?
x[
*heartbroken*


{Anna} says:
D:


>< ~11.11~------->33999 says:
hmph!
meanie! >=[
(dun say mousie)
(or mouse)
(or anything related to mouse)


{Anna} says:
Rat.

~11.11~------->33999 says:
(and mice too)
(or rodents)


{Anna} says:
The China version of Minnie Mouse.
Meanie Rat.
: D


~11.11~------->33999 says:
xD

{Anna} says:
XD

~11.11~------->33999 says:
haha
u hit young eun hard again today?

{Anna} says:
: P


~11.11~------->33999 says:
u rly are a true meanie >=]


{Anna} says:
A bit...
><

NOOOO

~11.11~------->33999 says:
lols


{Anna} says:
SHE KICKED ME FOR NO REASON!

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youngeun_kim says:
uuuuu meanie
and dun say mouse

{Anna} says:
rat.


youngeun_kim says:
...
meanie rat does not make sense anyway =p


{Anna} says:

"{Anna} says:
The China version of Minnie Mouse.
{Anna} says:
Meanie Rat.
{Anna} says:
: D
~11.11~------->33999 says:
xD "

youngeun_kim says:
..
whateva
btw
update ur blog
lol



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{Anna} says:
And thank you for scolding Young Eun.
XD

聖靈王-G2 CTE Vortex says:
haha


{Anna} says:
: D
I am no longer her sister, for she has disowned me.
But it's okay because I disowned her a long time ago anyway.
And swapped places with Yan Ping.
^-^

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{Anna} says:
I'm a puppy too?!
D':
A mean puppy!
Who attacks Young Euns!

HeaveNLord says:
LOL! xDDD
aiyohh this sisters arhh

{Anna} says:
XD
I am your daughter!
You are my marmi!
D:
I am marmi-san?
: P

HeaveNLord says:
o.o nooooo you are mai marmi >:[


{Anna} says:
: O
Nooo
Child, you picked me up.
: P

HeaveNLord says:
o.o"
then young eun has 3 sisters and one brother?
o.o
and i have 3 sisters and 1 brother too :P

{Anna} says:
XD
me marmi-san?
No?
No waittt.
Sous.
: P
Maybe.

HeaveNLord says:
o.o wats marmi-san ._.


{Anna} says:
: P
No idea.
XD
I thought it was like
"under".
: P


HeaveNLord says:
san...and under... hmm

{Anna} says:
AH HA!
I AM SOUS-MARMI!
XD


HeaveNLord says:
><>

{Anna} says:
Under. : P

HeaveNLord says:
oh realeh

{Anna} says:
Like, of lower position?
XD
I could be wrong.
: P
It's supposed to be sous-chef.

HeaveNLord says:
xD
sous-marmi xDD

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HeaveNLord says:
(:
want to sleep early today :]

{Anna} says:
D:
Everyone go bye bye! D:
D': Today is my day to play!
But no one want play with me!
D':

HeaveNLord says:
o.o"
lol i play with u i play with u :D

{Anna} says:
: D
yay yay!
Marmi play with sous-marmi!

HeaveNLord says:
xDD play..?

{Anna} says:
:D
Hmmm.
What do you wanna play?

HeaveNLord says:
truth or dare
>:]

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HeaveNLord says:
LOL no lahh xDD i have to choose someone o.o?

{Anna} says:
XD
yep

HeaveNLord says:
LOL young eun xDD

{Anna} says:
XDDDD
Nice.
Why?

HeaveNLord says:
the first person i thought of ._.

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{Anna} says:
He sort of looks like __(Name has been removed.)__, you know.


кιм;; ?? says:
who?
adam?
NOOO
THATSH AN INSHULTTT!


{Anna} says:
Go look.
Go stare and compare.


кιм;; ?? says:
haha bu yaoooo
))):


{Anna} says:
That ryhmes.


кιм;; ?? says:
adam is wayyy hotter
=DDD
NIIIICE
GO STARE AND COMPARE
would be ideal for a blog title


{Anna} says:
Go see.


кιм;; ?? says:
=]]


{Anna} says:
XD

кιм;; ?? says:
shee waaaddd


{Anna} says:
I say that to Young Eun too.


кιм;; ?? says:
(:


{Anna} says:
She doesn't believe me.


кιм;; ?? says:
haha


{Anna} says:
: P


кιм;; ?? says:
say which one?
adam?

NOOOOO
)))):


{Anna} says:
Nooo


кιм;; ?? says:
__(Removed.)___ is no adam

))):

{Anna} says:
U-Know.


кιм;; ?? says:
...


{Anna} says:
Her favourite singer,
looks like __(Name has been removed.)___.

Kind of.
The face.
Except U-Know


кιм;; ?? says:
EWWWW

=]

{Anna} says:
has a longer one.
XD
In that picture.
: P


кιм;; ?? says:
haha
;pp


{Anna} says:
Not sure about others, though.


кιм;; ?? says:
interesting
+D


{Anna} says:
She screamed at me.


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кιм;; ♥ says:
I LOVE ADAM LAMBERT LAHH


{Anna} says:
: P
Adam
Adam's apple.


кιм;; ♥ says:
haha

{Anna} says:
Lamb.


кιм;; ♥ says:
xD


{Anna} says:
Ert.
Lamb & Ert.
What's Ert?


кιм;; ♥ says:
xDDDDD
NOOOOO

{Anna} says:
The weird sound the lamb makes because he just got an adam's apple?


кιм;; ♥ says:
anna shall not boo-boo my adam (:

{Anna} says:
Boo-Boo.


кιм;; ♥ says:
yesh.
boo-boo.


{Anna} says:
Lamb crying because it can only make sounds like "Ert. Ert."?
Poor lambie.


кιм;; ♥ says:
xDDDDDDDDDDDD


{Anna} says:
Puberty and all.


кιм;; ♥ says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
adam is good )))=

{Anna} says:
's apple.


кιм;; ♥ says:
xD
you ish don't like my adam?
)))):


{Anna} says:
's apple?
My gosh.
Never knew you had one.


кιм;; ♥ says:
nooo

{Anna} says:
Your voice being so high and all.
Amazed.

кιм;; ♥ says:
ADAM THE GUYYY
heehee


{Anna} says:
Today I am amazed.
And his apple?
Mm.
Don't know the guy.
He sells them?
How much?

кιм;; ♥ says:
haha xDDD
noooooo


{Anna} says:
I like apples...

кιм;; ♥ says:
=ppppp
mei you xDDD

{Anna} says:
: P
How sad!

So he's a lamb that has gone through puberty?
Not selling apples?
And makes the sound "Ert. Ert."?
D:
Poor, miserable lamb!

кιм;; ♥ says:
haha
=]]
i still like him though, despite whatever views ye have on him (:


{Anna} says:
The lamb?
Is it a soft toy?
Is that why you like it so much?
What colour is it?
Pink?
I once had a pink lamb which was a soft toy, really.
I was about 5, I think..


кιм;; ♥ says:
:S


{Anna} says:
They gave it to me from Church, nice people.
^-^

Is the lamb soft?
But you said it could go high...?
So his voice just broke...
: P
Oh well.
Mm.
Enjoy your lamb with the Adam's apple.
: D
That goes "Ert. Ert."
OHHHH.
Lambie looks like that Jonas brother.
What's his name again?


кιм;; ♥ says:
I KNOW!

{Anna} says:
Joe?
: P


кιм;; ♥ says:
thats wad ive been telling everyone!!!


{Anna} says:
: P
About the lamb...
Poor Joe Jonas. Being compared to a lamb.
Both fan groups will kill me.


кιм;; ♥ says:
haha xD



He sings pretty well, actually.
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I lost the rest of the conversation.

{Anna} says:
Alvin the chipmunk has a baby...?
:
Oh my gosh.
Never knew that.
Illegitimate child?!

Congratulations, Aileen. (:
You're a REAL Auntie now. (:
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{Anna} says:
No where!
D:!
No love!
XD


☺Calbee~~~☻ says:
=.=
crazy anna


Saturday, February 21, 2009
1:54 AM

P.S: Eye Finder.

Oh yea.

Feel honoured.

One whole post dedicated to you. At 1.55AM too.

Your mouth looks better with the "natural braces" look, I realised.

Without the colour, I mean.

I don't know.

Maybe because it's a fresh new look. (:

But they look good.

The silver shines more now.

Don't think I don't look at your mouth!

But then again, it'd be creepy if you thought I did...


1:13 AM

Today.

What a way to start my day.

Awesome.

It rhymes.

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I find myself KNOWING I'm moving very awkwardly without actually having a mirror to laugh at myself.

What was it?

Left, Right, Back, Back, Clap, Turn, Step?

What was it?

It rhymes though, I think.

Was that from the Karate Kid?

Washing windows. Heh.
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I should be copying down notes, but I write something else instead.

Cell walls.

Osmosis.

Diffusion.

Mm. Your Honour might like that.

No, not YOUR Honour.

My Your Honour, okay my thoughts do not make sense.

I wish I didn't take a nap.

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-Points to "THINK".-

"Are you thinking?"

I smiled at that question, for some reason.

And I realised I was thinking about other things.

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I felt your icy cold hands on my neck. I thought my voice cracked.

I grab a chair.

I try to steal one from Young Eun, but she stops me.

She goes on about blogs again.

I realised that with my iPod, I have accidentally posted the same thing, 13 times.

Well, in all fairness, it said I was banned.

Plus, it was lagging.

"I didn't ban you!"

"It's okay..."

"NO! I REALLY DIDN'T BAN YOU!"

"IT'S OKAY! I KNOW YOU DIDN'T!"

I think 'It's okay' has to be the worst answer ever given, but I use it anyway.
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I got a shock from a joke that wasn't really funny.

And then I had my own personal joke that wasn't funny either but I smiled about when she left.

My mind is completely wrong, Kimberly Teo. You messed it up even more. (:

Hope you enjoyed the acting.

I look at Joelle's pony tail, and hop around her while I chew on my pear.

She looks slightly confused and afraid.

"I quite like it."

She breaks out into laughter. I like her laugh.

I smacked the back of your head. (:
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"I'm not giving you your Math papers till you admit he's hot!"

"Fine. I don't like Math much, anyway. I did the corrections already. You can keep them."

"NO! SAY IT!"

"Fine. The guy, in the picture looks hot.

Because he looked SWEATY. (:"

"ARGH!"

-One minute later.-

"OKAY! FINE! YOU CAN HAVE YOUR PAPERS BACK! Since you DID admit he was hot in some way. Six out of ten for your Math test. No good!"

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I copy the words on the board.

Then start doodling a monkey.

I've drawn a mushroom on top, before that.

Suddenly something flies to the front of the classroom.

There's screaming.

And then I have to write what I did and saw.

So I wrote what I just wrote here, minus the monkey and mushroom.

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I don't pick up a pen.

Instead, I pick up a pencil instead, like I do nowadays, except today I attempt to draw.

I say attempt because I really can't.

I must have been influenced by "Rem" because she keeps drawing and showing them to me.

They're awesome.

I tell her I can't draw.

She says to practice.

And I try drawing her while she "voices out" my answers for me.

She says, "Well, you don't speak up, anyway!"

I continue drawing and give her a cube as a head.

Something I've learnt to draw from Helena.

"Allegory." I say, attempting to use what we've just learnt.

"What?!"

"Fine, symbolic, then?"

"Do you know what Allegory means?"

Before I can answer.

"It means, like, for example, Little red riding hood shows that girls in red hoods should not talk to wolves."

"Yes, but it also means that ladies in red should not talk to strange men."

"Huh?"

"Well, if a lady wears a red dress and looks good in it, don't men often get uh... Attracted to her?"

"Little red riding hood is just a little GIRL."

"I KNOW. I SAID A LADY!"

"What?"

"Oh, forget it."

"EXPLAIN IT! A lady in a red dress, and then...?"

"Huh? Huh? Nevermind."

I stare at the tiny drawing I made which really isn't much of a drawing.

I still like her, though.

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I just stare.

Stare at the blueness, then redness, and wonder if it's the cold or if something strange has just occurred.

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"YOU'RE EATING A STICK OF BUTTER!"

"AGHHHHHHHHHH! -Moaning of a crow/cat/woman in labour-"

How easily you get offended.

I gave you another smack at the back of your head.

But I found out that butter was more effective.

Hurrah..

"Humbug!"

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Thank you for finding the eye near my desk.

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Umm. Am I supposed to say I love you back?

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Notice the little dashes. They are here for a reason.
I spammed Aileen's tagboard over 30 times, I think.

Go check the others if you'd like.

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You should tag. Unlike the people who spam my tagboard on impulse, you should tag.


1:09 AM

Look! The gears!

{Anna} says:
I think what'd be amazing is that the baby would be your own flesh and blood.
Actually made from parts of you.
^-^

I think that was completely stupid of me.

"Actually made from parts of you."

We're not vehicles.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME TODAY?!


12:55 AM

For the record.

I'm going to sort of "advertise" a brand new blog.

From a fresh new blogger.

Mm.

It's not because it's awesome.

(Not that she's not awesome, though.)

It's more like... Well. To set the record straight.

A commentary, I guess.

http://leenasumyi.blogspot.com/

And welcome to... Helena's blog. (:

FIRST post:

Dear Helena, if you had paid attention to researching on kidneys, like we were supposed to, you would have found out that people actually EAT animal kidneys.

But then I can't really be the one using that against you, since I was in a series of tag wars myself.

I actually only chose the skin after searching for "mushroom" and picking the one off the top of the list.

And yea. I typed "KIDNEYS."

Mm.

I'm starting to think this is stupid of me.

I slept too much today.

SECOND Post:

Happy Birthday. (:

It's cute in a way why you tell people you've "g2g". Or maybe it's because we're such good friends that I think this way.

Oh well.

THIRD Post:

My gosh, Helena.

You've got your facts wrong.

I slept at 6.41 in the evening and woke up at 6.41 the next morning.

Yep.

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Wow. My posts are getting worser everyday. (:

Sweet.


Tuesday, February 17, 2009
9:29 PM


My mum wants me to write less. I think.


Sunday, February 15, 2009
1:59 AM

Spamming at nearly 2AM.

I'm sorry, Young Eun.

I totally spammed your whole tagboard.

Delete them all, if you'd like. :D

You're a kind "marmi" who invited me to her blog only to be faced with 27 tags of pure craziness and randomness.

I'm sorry, but I'll probably do it again. So I apologise for that too.
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I realised that it was February today.

And that January was over, but I hadn't sent out any birthday e-mails when I should have.

I wanted to just now, wishing you a VERY late birthday, but I didn't know if I should, if it'd be alright.

I had fun talking to you guys, I really did. (;

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Cheer up, sweetie.

When we think of you, we think of hearts.

You might seem like the average girl, but you're super cheery most days, and you make me happy. (:

So, your honour, with all due respect, I seed you.

Singles have more fun, it's a fact.

But you'll never be single with me to annoy you. (:

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I only tease you because I feel that we're close.

I know that you don't eat toes.

I hope you don't take everything too seriously. : P

Basically, I care enough about you, that I think it'll still be okay if I joke around.

It means I'm COMFORTABLE around you.

And I like having silly, weird debates; ones where we don't even know which side we're arguing for.

I know you have hidden depths to you. (:

I want to listen to more of your stories. They're interesting.

When I see you, I feel that you're tired.

I need you to know that trust is really important, for any relationship.

So, DEAL WITH IT. XD

Little cute klutz.
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You. For some reason, we've stopped talking for days.

I'm glad we've finally managed to, though.

I've told you stuff I promised myself I'd tell nobody.

I hope you keep them to yourself. (:

I trust that you would.

Like I told you last night, I hope that even if we both change in the near future, we'd still be friends, though we know it's going to be hard.

I like how we talk from different points of views.

Like we're not only the characters in the story, but the ones reading it.

You make me happy. (:

I'm sorry for punching you.

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We never talk anymore.

I know I was suppose to give a reply, but I don't know how to.

Do I just respond to everything in the letter and pretend everything is okay?

When I say, "We never talk anymore." I don't mean totally.

We still do, but is that really enough?

I miss you. I miss you a lot.

And you were concerned about me. I could see that. My mum kept telling me that too. XD

It's weird how once you'd talk to me about your problems and I still had the means to be cynical about it, and now, I'm afraid to say anything because everything feels so fragile.

Everything feels like it'll break in seconds.

I looked at our old class photo.

You looked happier.

You're still beautiful, in fact, sometimes I'm amazed at your beauty, but happiness brings your beauty to a whole new level.

I miss your laugh.

I don't hear it anymore.

I miss how you'd squeal over what's-his-name, and how I'd try to stop you.

I'd try, but it was all an act, really.

I didn't mind.

I was once on the verge of being obsessed with him too. XD

ALMOST!

Well, basically, I don't want this to be like the others.

I don't want it to be like any other friendship that just goes to die.

So, what do you want to do?

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I feel awkward around you nowadays.

We have TONS OF FUN.

Trust me, when I tell you that, I mean it.

No, I do not think you're boring.

I think that you're interesting in your own way.

And pretty too. (;

I love your height!

Remember how you said basketball supposingly makes you taller? :3

I really want to talk to you now, but you'd probably be asleep. : P

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I like your drawings. They make me laugh.

I know you sometimes try to be hard on us, but you're a real softie. (;

You lighten up the whole atmosphere.

And sometimes though you really annoy me, you have a quirky way about you that can't keep me mad for long.

You're like a whole bunch of oxymorons strung together, forming awesomeness.

It's fun watching you get mad and hit me when I just laugh about something you say or do.

And I like how you sometimes seem to care about me more than I care about you, but never want to say it.

I think you bring a whole new meaning to the phrase, "Actions speak louder than words."

You make me smile.

And laugh like crazy.

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So. Haven't heard from you in a while, but I still check on you everyday.

Yep. I just don't tag. :D

It's more fun that way, don't you think?

(Or completely stalker-ish.)

Congratulations on being head! >:]

I like purple.

And I like that you like photography.

I'm too afraid to ever meet you, though. : P

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Who are you?

Why do you keep apologising when it seems like you don't mean it?

I see you laugh and stare kind of creepily and then make comments to your friends.

--------------------------------

I keep watching you, for some reason.

But only from afar.

I think this makes it official of how much of a stalker I am, since when I'm supposed to say something, I can't even bear making eye contact.

Isn't it strange?

But then again, I've always liked a little weird.

I think you started to notice.

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It kind of annoys me that you seem like you don't want to talk to me.

But I think I might understand.

I remember you told me about the dentist.

And how we both agreed on teeth.

I didn't even know you then, but I thought you were alright.

And then I got to.

It was awkward at first.

I felt like I was crossing boundaries.

Like you were supposed to be the enemy, and I was never to enter.

You were to be untouched ground.

But I went, and found laughter.

Sure, it wasn't all laughs, but it mostly was.

You're another person that puts a smile on my face, even at times when I feel like I'm doomed.

You might not help much with the ACTUAL problem, but you help with my dying sense of humour.

So, for that, I am thankful. ^-^

I never thought that doing someone a favour could be funny.
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You're the first person I consider to actually be a little awkward.

Not because you're strange.

No, sometimes it's like you're uncomfortable with YOURSELF.

You have different thoughts on how everything should be, but I think you have to open up your mind a little bit.

People have to know you for a long time before they can finally know you.

I only know this, because I was like you.

I wouldn't open up my heart to anyone.

And think about it. If you bottle everything up to yourself, are you showing yourself love?

And if you don't show yourself love, how can you possibly show someone else by loving them?

I remember the first time I met you.

You were quiet, but we talked.

And now, we talk a little more.

But I have no idea what's going on really.

I really want to help, but I don't know if I should.

Stop being racist!
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Aww. You're not as violent as people think you are.

You're a little cute, really.

I know you've got a lot of thoughts going on inside that pretty little head of yours.

Yes, I said you're pretty.

Because you are, and you shouldn't let anyone be able to let you think they ruined you.

I like that you draw too.

I like how unique you are.

When you show me your softer side, like the times we've shared stories of our childhood together, it makes me happy.

It lets me know that other people are wrong about you.

You're a really sweet girl.

I dreamt of you in a black dress and sparkly headband.
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Hm. It's weird how even though I'm never talking to you, I feel like I am.

Or, I wish that I was.

I think about you an awful lot.

I feel like sharing almost every thought I have with you, because I know you try your best to understand.

You're an interesting conversationalist.

You actually humour me, and answered some of my most weirdest questions.

I don't know why you avoid some of them, though.

I'm like a kid around you, but sometimes I like feeling that way. I feel protected, in a way.

Other times though, I wish I would just stop myself from talking.

You've helped me a lot, no matter how much you think you haven't.

You're a person of many talents, really, you just never admit them.

You helped to inspire me a little bit. (:

You constantly encourage me, and I sometimes wonder, then stop myself.

I'm happy I met you, though we had a rough start.

I just wonder if you'd ever remember me, and if I meant nearly as much to you, or if I'm just someone you've talked to.

I used to be more comfortable with your voice.
--------------------------------

You're like my guide to getting older.

A lot of things I tell you, I don't tell the others.

We've read the same books, and liked them.

We've watched the same serials, or you tell me about them, and we love them.

We've traded movies, and thoughts on the acting, the plot, everything.

I remember the first time you helped me. I know you didn't remember my name, so you've probably forgotten, but I was new and felt lost.

And then I saw you, I asked where it was I needed to go, and instead of just telling me like any normal near-stranger would, you actually brought me there, helped me to ask everything, and only went away when I was done.

You're really awesome.

You're a big sister, and I look up to you, even though we have a different opinion on some matters.

But still, you're awesome, and I know you know that. (;

I like your smile and the way you talk.

You've got style.
--------------------------------

I've mentioned almost nothing about you.

Sometimes, I look to you when I want to be heard, and right now I'm wondering if I treated you fairly.

I feel afraid to be trapped by you, because of how I thought I almost was once.

I think I'm wrong.

There's still something discomforting about being around you.

Sometimes you really annoy me. It's not what you do to me directly, but sometimes little things like your mood, or what you say. Oh. And the bigger things make me feel like screaming at you.

But overall, I don't dislike you.

You can be a really good buddy sometimes, but right now I'm keeping a distance from you.

I think you can tell.

The windows are nearly empty these days, or always closed.

It's strange, seeing how we were once so close, but probably for the wrong reasons.

I was afraid.

But I thank you, anyway.

I've learnt so much from knowing you.

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I wished we talked more.

I tried. I really did.

I really wanted us to be as close.

But is this what time does to you?

Is time what makes people turn into strangers?

Maybe, but even so, I felt a glimmer of hope.

You didn't know how happy I was that you asked me why we never got to meet.

I didn't know if you wanted to.

I thought that any closeness or recognition was lost, and to be gone forever.

I thought that it wouldn't work anymore.

In a few months, I'll see you again.

We're kind of different people now.

But I still remember, and always will.

I don't want to forget.

You were my first real best friend.

I know I should say my real best friend is God, but I knew God sent you to help me through rough times.

And you did.

You did an awesome job of it, that when I left, the reason I changed so much was also because I missed you like crazy.

But it hurt when it seemed like it wasn't going to work out anymore.

I hope it does.

I remember the duck cup, the photos, broken earrings, misplaced things everywhere.

I remember the love you had for your family and animals and how much I admired that.

I'm glad you've stopped saying "nevermind" to me as much. But I'm picking that up now.


"What did you say?"
"Nevermind."
"JUST SAY IT, WILL YOU?!"
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Our friendship is strange.

No, not in the way that we can share food, but not want to talk for days after.

We're just a pair of weird people.

But we have fun.

You can bring out the cynical side in me, but you always tell me you're laughing.

Makes me wish I was there to hear it.

You said you were reading all my blog posts, but a while before that, I was worried you were different.

We've had awesome times. We're not extremely close, but we have that just enough amount of closeness that allows us to talk about random things, make sense of it all, and not think that eithier one of us is weird or crazy.

I think we just like the novelty of it all.

You're about one of the first few people I've met who says they laugh at everything I do, say or write.

I hope you still have that weird obsession with food.

I don't think my heart could take it if I found out you had really become a food disliker.

Non-food dislikers rock more.

Non-food is not worth talking about.

Royal berries.

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3.27AM


Saturday, February 7, 2009
9:10 PM

100 Random Things I Can Think of at the Moment.

{Anna} says:
Wanna write any?
XD
I can make up new topics for you.
>:]
(Including two, though. XD)


кιм;; ♥ says:
hmmm
sure (:
when im bored i'd do them xD


{Anna} says:
Okay.
Ummm.
Let's see.
What do you want to write about?

кιм;; ♥ says:
uhhh
><

anything?
xD gimme topics
xD

{Anna} says:
XD
Okay.
1) Number of guys I liked. (State some stories of some cases that most stood out to you.)
XD



кιм;; ♥ says:
xDDD


{Anna} says:
2) What I'd keep in a time capsule to myself. XD
3) -Censored- (:
4) Friends I'd remember for a lifetime.
5) Why I am obsessed with Zac-what's-his-name. XD
Yep.
These are your topics.
Choose any one. : D


кιм;; ♥ says:
OHHH choose?
xD

{Anna} says:
Yep. Or you can write all!
>:]
XD


кιм;; ♥ says:
haha i'd see if i have time >=]]]
can you write an essay for me too?

{Anna} says:
ha ha


кιм;; ♥ says:
=]]]


{Anna} says:
okay!
Sure.
: D
TOPICSSS.


кιм;; ♥ says:
1) what i see in the FOB.
2) how you think life will be when you move away from this compound
3) the best memories u have of S1d
4) 100 Random things you can think of at the moment
5) Your dream future


{Anna} says:
XD
(I'm moving next month, by the way.)
Hm.
Nice.
I like number 1,
since I have their song on repeat right now.
XD
Hmmm
Do you want me to type it on word, or here?


кιм;; ♥ says:
hmmmm
essay format (:
so...type it out (:


{Anna} says:
ha ha
Okay,
So like, type it on word, not here, right?
WAHAHA.

кιм;; ♥ says:
haha yeahh
=]]]


{Anna} says:
Hmm.
Okay!


кιм;; ♥ says:
no rush kay xD
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And Miss Kimberly, I've done it. I expect to see yours soon! >:]
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100 Random Things I Can Think of at the Moment.

Saturday, 7th February 2009, 6.41 PM.
Current Setting: My room.
Current Activities: Typing this, eating dinner, listening to a song.
Current song playing: Tiffany Blews by Fall Out Boy.


According to Kimberly Teo, (Yes, the other Kimberly, I have to write an essay on “100 Random Things I Can Think of at the Moment.” So here goes.

Number one. I really like the song “Tiffany Blews” by Fall Out Boy. In fact, it’s on repeat right now.

Number two. I’m afraid that I won’t be hearing from Kimberly Anne Possible any time soon.

Number three. People probably don’t get the “Kimberly Anne Possible” thing.

“I’m your basic average girl, and I’m here to save the world, you can’t stop me because I’m
KIM-POS-SI-BLE.”

Okay. If I got the lyrics wrong, you can’t blame me since I’m only typing it by memory.

“HOW DO YOU EVEN KNOW THAT SONG, ANYWAY?!”

Number four. Don’t ask.

Number five. I decided to type what I’m doing, what time it is…

Number six. I’m kind of a weirdo, aren’t I?

Number seven. Since I’m typing this on Microsoft Word, the green and red squiggly lines appear. I clicked on “Word Check” and clicked on “Ignore” several times.

I can’t stand those lines.

Number eight. I plan to put lines in between every thought I’ve typed.

Number nine. I realised I’m kind of a weird perfectionist in my own weird ways, and these aren’t really thoughts.

Number ten. Are black dresses really classics?

Number eleven. I shouldn’t be putting the lines…

Number twelve. I hear fireworks. Has an elderly person just died? Or are they just using up the firecrackers left over from Chinese New Year?

Number thirteen. Does the sentence, “Has somebody old just died?” sound as rude as it is in my head?

Number fourteen. I’m really not funny, aren’t I?
Number fifteen. MICROSOFT WORD CAN BE REALLY ANNOYING! They put a green squiggly line under “Number fourteen.”!

Number sixteen. I have to get over myself.

Number seventeen. Like the magazine?

Number eighteen. White hairs. On my head. And Kimberly Hoong’s. (Plucks hers using imagination.)

Number nineteen. Men’s toes. I have a packet of “mentos” on my pillow.

Number twenty. Mm. Chocolates on pillows. WHY DON’T HOTELS DO THAT ANYMORE?

Number twenty-one. Sometimes I wish I was born earlier. But then again, I wouldn’t have met a lot of people I know now.

But then again, I WOULDN’T have met A LOT of people I know now.

(Cue evil laughter.)

Number twenty-two. Kimberly Teo is “Pleasant to the eyes”? Quite true, actually.

Number twenty-three. Fairies on mushrooms!

Number twenty-four. I wonder who would care if I was dead. Not that I WANT to be dead or commit suicide! No way. I don’t want to go to hell. I meant, if I committed suicide. Ah. Forget it.

Number twenty-five. Are glasses our friends? “Glasses. Friend or foe?”

Number twenty-six. Potatoes. I like potatoes. Couch potatoes? Well, I don’t know, but I’m a bed potato.

Number twenty-seven. “The looney bin.” Those three words just popped into my head. And then I remembered someone telling me that there’s a huge difference between “lonely” and “looney”.

I had typed: “And if you’re lonely, why’d you say you’re not loney?”

Number twenty-eight. I hate making typos myself, but should he have minded his own business? Number twenty-seven makes him sound as if he was being philosophical. Till I typed out my own error…

Number twenty-nine. I really AM going “looney.” Maybe it’s because I’m “lonely”?

Number thirty. What’s with the quotations?

Number thirty-one. Great. Now I’m questioning myself.

Number thirty-two. Jumping on a stage barefooted, singing in concert. Is that where I plan to be “beyond my wildest dreams in eleven years?” The quotation is what Simon on American Idol had asked someone who auditioned…
Number thirty-three. Oh great. I watch American Idol too?

Number thirty-four. Well, that was because I was in Singapore, and had been deprived of TV for more than a year.

But I did want to watch it after a while…

Number thirty-five. What if you had someone else’s memories? What if someone had mine? Then, they’d probably always picture themselves in my room, from day to night…

Number thirty-six. Do I choose to make myself a prisoner of my room?

Number thirty-seven. I like to go cycling.

Number thirty-eight. I wonder what the two Kimberlys are doing now. Kimberly Anne Possible? Probably saving the world in the minds of children.

Like me.

Number thirty-nine. Kimberly Hoong had sent me a text. About half an hour ago, and I didn’t reply. This makes me think she was probably checking her phone a lot.

Okay, but then again, she isn’t like me.

Wow. She replied. Maybe she IS like me.

Number thirty-eight. My phone is constantly on silent mode. Don’t teenagers like to be alerted of who texts them?

But maybe I’m not a teenager.

I think I’m more of a kid…

Number thirty-nine. I’m using a headset now for the computer, and the plugs that connect it to the computer are red and green. In a way, they kind of freak me out, because some parts of it looks like faces. Hmm. They sort of resemble that rock display which could talk in “Night at the Museum.”

Or sleeping alien babies with green or pink skin.

Number forty. I’m thinking of Aileen and Yan Ping now, for some reason.

Number forty-one. This is one BORING essay. It so is.

Yea. It so is.

Number forty-two. I’m having a conversation with myself, while waiting for the picture I took with my phone to be uploaded into the computer.

People say my phone is horrid. But besides allowing me to call, text, and put it on silent mode, it has a camera! Do I really need more?
“Your phone su**s.” –Sarah Tan.
“Wow. What an old phone.” – Someone I can’t remember.

Number forty-two.




Sleeping alien babies as mentioned as written in thirty-nine. They give me the heebie-jeebies.

Number forty-three. I have a lot of wires I need to sort out.

Number forty-four. I really should be doing my math homework instead.

Number forty-five. I wonder if I’ll also be graded on this.

Number forty-six. My thoughts are getting shorter and shorter. Is the number related to age?

Number forty-seven. I wonder if one day I’ll say to people, “I’M REALLY ONLY ______!” and if they thought I was older or younger than that initially.

Number forty-eight. It was Christmas day and we were in Church. They were handing out mandarins. (And isn’t that meant for Chinese New Year? But maybe because we’re in China…) These mandarins were meant for children younger than eighteen. I was seated next to Joanna. The lady handed a mandarin to Joanna and skipped me.

NOW, WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?

Number forty-nine. I’m in the car and my dad is telling us… Stuff. Suddenly, he tells us of a conversation he had with a lady at a party.

“This woman asked me if Annabelle has a boyfriend. I said no and asked why. She asked if Annabelle was sixteen.”

I am not the girlfriend-type.

Number fifty. I am seated next to Joanna’s brother, Jonathan. He’s fifteen.

“Hey… You look older than my brother!”

Number fifty-one. I really AM sounding old for grumbling about this.

Number fifty-two. I have a piece of paper that I keep on my notice board. It has three poems about daffodils on it, and was handed out to us last year by our teacher. I’ve only read it twice since I put it up there. And the second time was only just now, so I could check if I was spelling “daffodils” right.

Number fifty-three. The fireworks continue in a slow motion. I wonder if it’s supposed to resemble a slowing heartbeat.

Number fifty-four. I went to my window, drew the curtains and looked outside because I realised that I was only HEARING these sounds, but not actually bothering to look at the “fireworks”. But when I got there, the sounds stopped, and there was no fireworks in sight.

Am I imagining things? Or was that a REAL slowing heartbeat?

Number fifty-five. Where did the term “yo” as a greeting, come from? I know of yo-yos…

Number fifty-six. I haven’t seen yo-yos in a long time! WHERE ARE THE YO-YOS?!

Number fifty-seven.
Wikipedia says:
“Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary states that the word Yo-yo “probably” derives from the northern Philippine Ilokano language word "yóyo", while allowing that cognate words appear in other Philippine languages. Many other sources including Panati’s "Extraordinary Origins of Everyday Things" say that "yo-yo" was a Tagalog word, supposedly meaning “come-come” or “return.” ”

So, when people say, “yo”, do they really mean, “come” or “return”?

WHERE DO I COME/RETURN TO?!

Number fifty-eight. I have this weird thing with fonts. When someone prints out a document in Times New Roman, I sometimes find myself wondering if they were too lazy to change the font.

Number fifty-nine. THE SOUNDS ARE BACK! But I am too lazy to go look again. How ironic. It’s like the pot calling the kettle black.

Number sixty. That’s the way the saying goes, isn’t it? Well, ISN’T IT?

Number sixty-one. While I’m typing this, I feel like I’m in a different place, and I realise that it’s 7.46PM now. Wow. It took me about an hour and five minutes to get this far.

Number sixty-two. But then again, I stayed up till five in the morning trying to finish up my five-paragraph essay.

“FIVE paragraph essays require me to write till FIVE in the morning.” Nice.

Number sixty-three. Joanna said I “self-praise”. I think I’m starting to agree.

Number sixty-four. I wonder if anyone else will see this besides Kimberly Teo.

Number sixty-five. I realised that Patrick is quite a common name. There’s even a holiday with that name!

Number sixty-six. 66. Two sixes. Hm.

Number sixty-seven. My dad said he used to give me bowl cuts. I’m starting to think that I have one now. But well, the person who cut my hair didn’t put a bowl over my head…

Well, there’s always imagination, isn’t there?

Number sixty-eight. There IS a big difference between one year and three.

Number sixty-nine. There are two red blotches on my bed from this morning.

Number seventy. Should I be bothered trying to get them out?

Number seventy-one. Wow. Tissues and water work. I shall tell all my friends.

Number seventy-two. I wonder, if I were to resemble a character out of a book or movie, who I’d be.

Number seventy-three. I wonder how many times I’ve listened to “Tiffany Blews.”

I checked. iTunes says, “105”.

Number seventy-four. I think if they made all computer software talk, I’d be freaked out. My dad tried playing me an audio book a few nights ago. I nearly ran away.

Number seventy-five. Voices help me get to sleep. Singers, people doing podcasts, friends on the phone… But now, I have a doubt about audio books… The weird thing about it all though, was that the night before I had dreamt that I was listening to an audio book to fall asleep and enjoyed it very much.

Number seventy-six. I had a dream about listening to an audio book. Is that weirder?

Number seventy-seven. It’s 8.04 PM now. Not a sight of the number seven.

Number seventy-eight. I wonder if I’ll live till seventy-eight…

Number seventy-nine. Three periods at the end of a sentence…

Number eighty. My phone is purple. Am I obsessed with my phone?

Number eighty-one. I’m thinking about having a shower, probably because that’s where I think most. I’m thinking about having a shower because I think I think more there.

I like repetition.

Number eighty-two. Imagine if everyone went around saying “Insert word here” like I do.
Yes, I literally go around saying, “Insert word here”. Tiffany inspired.
And no, not the one from the song.

Number eighty-three. I have just received an e-mail from “Facebook”. Probably to allow me to type more nonsensical things that will only make sense to me, and more likely, Vivien than Kelly.
Number eighty-four. I was virtually poked. Do people not care about my stomach cramps? Just now, my four year old brother jumped on me.

Number eighty-five. I’m thinking of Ella. I’m wondering if she’d get a kick out of this and make fun of me. She probably would.

Number eighty-six. If I were to post this online, I wonder if people who know nothing about me and had come across it would be annoyed that I’m mentioning names that mean nothing to them. I would be.

But then again, I brought it upon myself by reading the blogs of people I don’t know.

Number eighty-seven. I wonder if it’s alright to get irrationally mad at someone just because they don’t know the name of the place they’re currently at, and ask you where it is. I mean, after all, it IS Nina.

Number eighty-eight. I spelt the name wrong. Is it my fault now?

Number eighty-nine. Teddy bears are cute when they have the message
"Seed you. :3" attached to them.

Number ninety. Tiny, flying apples of doom being hurled at innocent people.

Number ninety-one. I wonder why it’s taking me more than an hour to get this done. Don’t people get stuff like this done quicker? Aileen asked me what I was writing.

Number ninety-two.

aileen(: says:
woah xD hehe at one moment, you can think of so many things xD


She makes a very good point. It is not taking me a moment, but a few hours.

Number ninety-three. I’m controlling myself to not let all my thoughts out.

Number ninety-four. I should be letting my actual thoughts out. Should I virtually poke the poker back?

Number ninety-five. Do asterisks sound vulgar? I kind of pity them. They look like snowflakes, really, but they’re being used to cover up the things that people say…

Hmm. Maybe they ARE made of awesome, then.

Number ninety-six. I make no sense.

Number ninety-seven. Sense. Cents. Fifty cents. A penny for your thoughts, please.

Number ninety-eight. Pink shoes. Pink glittery shoes.


I already had this in my phone… It now hangs on my notice board.

Number ninety-nine. I have weird pictures in my phone.

Number one hundred. I’m finally done with this. What should I end it with? It has to be something good. Something to show what kind of person I am…

Ah. Forget it.

-8.32PM



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Conversation with the OTHER Kimberly.

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{Anna} says:
WAHAHA!



~11.11~------->33999 says:
yo! (I smiled at this.)
o.o
did sth happen?



{Anna} says:
hee
:P
Umm
Wait,
should I put the 100 things on my blog?
: P



~11.11~------->33999 says:
go put larh
update ur lbogg

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And so Kimberly 1, I've put this here so you can look at it when you come online. (:



Tuesday, February 3, 2009
12:37 AM

Today I Wondered.

Today I wondered...



How my life would have been if I was still learning the piano and did not "give up".
I was about 7 years old. I woke up one day and heard my mum outside saying, "It's just a waste of money! She doesn't practice, doesn't want to go for lessons..."

Back then, I was HAPPY to give up piano. I was thinking how much of a pain it was. Having to go for lessons, for tests. For my parents to have to spend money on something I didn't like learning.

And then later I realised. I realised that I shouldn't have given up. Sure, having to get a piano in your house is a sure bother while moving, but I would have something else.

The gift of music?

And the ability to be able to actually READ notes.

Sure, I love my life, and being able to listen to music, but it can be somewhat of a bother when you have a group of friends playing the piano together and discussing the notes to play and all.

So you stand further away, and think, "Why can't I do that?"


What knowledge I would have gained if I had read newspapers or watched the news.

First of all, I would have actually known how to OPEN one, and read it without the pages getting torn or messed up.

But then again, that's why I don't read newspapers.

The inconvinience.

"Did you watch the news last night? There was this case about...."

"No."

"Okay."


If I would have kept swimming after my coach died. That is, because I stopped swimming MONTHS before his death.

Swimming pools. I used to love swimming pools.

I never felt more free anywhere else.

And then what happened?

"Okay. So, time to go for swimming lessons."

"Can I not go today? I'm feeling really tired."

"Fine. But I still pay $50 every month, you know."

"Then I won't go this month."

And then I never went again.


What situations I would be in right now if I was still open with my feelings.

A voice in my head tells me to tell her how I feel.

And to tell him.

To tell anyone.

But my actual voice never listens.

And then it was too late.


What person I would be if I had never moved to another country.

Initially, I hated having to move.

But now I look back and realised I was living a life that was too much for me to handle.

I thought I was relaxed, but the scars on my arms from eczema probably tell a different story.
I have different ideas now.

I see the world differently now.

It's not as restricted.

But then again, I feel like I'm running away...


Of how not meeting some people would impact my life.

I would have never learnt how to ride a bike.

I would have never wanted to take care of someone as much.

I would never have realised that I could regret something this much.

I would never have laughed as hard.

I would have never had someone as fun to talk to, even though most of my words are not heard.

I would never have realised that emoticons can be aliens or have too many chins.

I would have never called mentos, "men's toes".

I would have never found stroking someone's arm fun.

I would have never believed that eyes can turn different colours.

I would have never owned someone for a few yuan.

I would have never wanted to stalk someone else's cousin.

I would never have thought that someone I once thought I hated, would end up being my best friend.

I would have never known someone who makes the title "Auntie" sounds so cool.

I would have never known that underwear falling would be so funny.

I would have never had someone fit my description of a perfect person to me.

I would have never had wanted to steal a girlfriend just for fun.

I would have never wanted to propose to someone just so that I could pretend steal her.

I would have never seen someone who looked so pretty in glasses.


If I really loved the people I claimed to.

You're there for me everyday. You do things for me that I would never be capable of doing for you. Sometimes I feel completely annoyed when you say things to people. But I know you really do love me. And I wonder if I'd be able to care for you the same way you did for me.

I wonder if I could tell you I loved you again, without feeling like I was choking out the words.

I sometimes feel like crying, when I think about the times I probably hurt you, and how hard it is to say sorry.

You've been there for me every step of the way. Yet I can never really say thank you.

I feel scared of losing you. Yet I can never let the words escape.

*****

I remember the good times we had in the past few years. I remember feeling extremely loved by you. I remember looking up to you, and thinking to myself, "I want to be just like him and work hard."

I remember feeling protected by you.

I remember missing you dearly while you were away.

I remember being taught new things by you. So many new things that made me think you were the best. That you were how they should be.

But now I doubt you.

I know you still love me, I know you still care.

But there are bad thoughts in my head about you now. And I need God's help to remove them.
I would be sad to know if it was the truth.

I find myself losing respect for you; respect I should be gaining back.

You're gone most days, but I feel free.

I no longer let those words come out from my mouth.

I pull away from your touch.

But I know you care.

I know you still love me.

Which is why sometimes I just want to break down and cry.

And ask myself, "What's become of me?"

It's true that sometimes your words hurt.

But you're still what you are to me.

Nothing can change that.



How I really felt.

I remember, in kindergarten.

"Today, children, you're going to draw. The theme is about what you did over the weekend."

I remembered the weekend well. I had lots of fun. We went out to the park.

My family and I, and my aunts too.

I began to draw.

"Ew. What's that?" The girl next to me said. "HEY! Look! Isn't this ugly?" She said to the boy sitting next to her.

"Yea!"

I walked away with my drawing.

"Sit down!" The teacher told me.

When I did, there was no chair there, and I fell.

"HA HA!" The boy said, with my chair held in his hands.
*****
"Ahh. I probably can't do it."

"Yea I know. You're too heavy."

"What was that?"

"Nothing." -Smiles-

*****

"Why not call the... OH! You know I didn't say that to offend you."

"I don't care, anyway."

*****
"She said you're fat."

" I don't care, anyway."

*****

"Maybe you should lay off it for a while."

*****

"Look! Look at her!"

*****

"He said..."

"Ah. Why should I care about him?"

****

"You KNOW what to ask."

****

"I hate you."

"Okay."

****

"Are you on bad terms? I heard she was mean to you."

"Nah. She's okay."

****

"Next time open your big... Mouth!"

"It wasn't me who wanted the water!"

****

"I don't know you anymore."

"Ha ha...."

****

"Is it okay if you help me to..."

****

" Well, do you?"

"Ha ha... No, I don't!"

****

"It's okay to cry! One time I also burst out crying in class too. No one knew why."

"I wasn't crying. I was yawning."


How my relationships with my relatives would be like if I visited them more.

It's Chinese New Year.

"Hello." I wave awkwardly.

Have small talk with them.

At the end of the dinner, I text: "I'm sure they all dislike me. (:"

I also remembered washing my face in the washroom.

After giving a hug to someone which I thought might be my last.

****
My parents are taking me to my cousins' house. I'm not so close to this ones. I haven't seen them in a long time.

One of the two sisters is a girl my age. Her name is Gladis.

I've never seen Gladis for a long time, I think to myself in the car.

I'm wearing a dress and carrying my small Barbie backpack.

I walk up to their house.

Gladis and I end up having a great time.

She tells me of how she keeps a stuffed toy in her bags now too, as she said I used to do that.

She has this mailbox kind of thing that she keeps outside her door. She says it's for people to leave her letters. I quite like the idea of that! Seems like loads of fun.

My parents says that we're going home, and Gladis can come. I'm thrilled.

We go back to my house, grab a shoebox, and Gladis starts making me a mailbox. While hers was simple, the one she was making me was much more nicer, I thought.

I admired her craftsmanship. I knew if I were doing it on my own, it would have never been as perfect.

She cuts the white pieces of paper and puts them perfectly over each side of the box. She then slits a rectangular hole with a pen knife. I was amazed as I watched.

We started decorating the handmade mailbox together and had a lot of fun.

I had one of those sticker photos which I pasted on, and we had chosen a small ruby red bead to be a kind of centerpiece on the mailbox.

I really felt it was as beautiful as a ruby.

Once we were done, my uncle - Gladis' father came for her.

She said she would visit soon.

We don't meet for months.

And when we did, I had lost the "mailbox".

****

"Remember the mailbox you made for me once?"

"Uhh. OH YEA!"

"Yep! There was a red bead on it."

"Oh yea, and some sticker... Like a red one?"

"That was the bead."

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2.16AM.